Eurgh.

It looks terrible.

according to me, but not fern. So I dunno. AHHH : (

kbai some mores.

xxxx

OH MAI GAWD

I’m getting a hair cut today = ] will be jokes.
Going from okayish to this:

What my hair shall be.

I think it will look rather good. It shall also be my Oz hair. Because I need to make a good impression with Oz people so i must have shexy hair.    Not that there will be anyone to impress besides my family : |

Faggots.

kbai
xxx

Shit

I’m tired as.
Cocks.
This is not fun

xxx

Who got the hooch, baby

Who got the only sweetest thing in the world
Who got the love, who got the fresh-e-freshy
Who got the only sweetest thing in the world

Some one please help me, I wish to know in a simple definition, what is the hooch? Because by the sounds of it, I want it. However, I’m not sure, because really sweet things are sometimes sickly, so if it is the sweetest thing in the world… is it really that good?

Anyway, I am EXHAUSTED. I haven’t had proper amounts of sleep and i’ve been INCREDIBLY active during the day.  Especially when you run out of cum, after doing it a few times, your body apparently cant produce more. I’ve found that when you get to that point, you can just keep going because there is no cum to orgasm with? Or is that just me?  Either way, it allows me to keep going which is rather good if you ask me : )

However, it is a bit disapointing on your side, because all you get is swetty : ) Well no thats bollocks, it feels great, its just without the orgasm, but i’m not complaning because I was perfectly happy with the ones i’d had earlier : )

Okay, I’m talking about my orgasms, to the public. DEAR GOD.
What has happened to my concept of privacy?

New topic.

I’m planning on wiping my computer of everything besides a few select things before 6 form.
A fresh start, so it’s very good, because its all like… NEW and clean and stuff!

I haven’t done it yet so it’s still all OLD and dirty and things. Which is annoying because i like things clean and stuff, but most of the time i’m too lazy to do any of it : )

Rollarcoasters, Holy Rollers, I was shot down in Southern California!

Thats a good song, but… yeah, I have started cleaning files out so i know which pictures and films I want to keep. I have very few left, pictures are mostly memories from last year, group shots, fun days such like. 1 of the exgf… I need to keep that memory to stop me doing it again.  Films.. just the ones i liked.. and you know, usual reasons for keeping a film rather than just for the hell of it. I may actually get round to putting some on disk at some point… could be interesting?

BUT BUT BUT I’m not keeping any of my music. Which means, i will have to download it all over again = ]
Your all thinking I’m mad : ) I have fuck loads of music, and i’m getting rid of all of it. SHOCK HORROR : O

Noes, I want a fresh start, so It means I get rid of all the bads that I don’t really listen to and could live without. It’s a much better way of getting the bands you like.  Normally I cant delete anything, which is why if i wipe everything, it’s good = ] That way I feel as if I had no control and dont think “Shit I should have kept that” I still sound mad, but no worries, i know what I’m doing : )

This is my second post in one day, what is going on? It’s normally like.. 1 a month nowadays…
It must be a OMG WRITE THINGS day : ) How odd.

Anyways, ‘In walked a monkey with a couple of funky friends and this is what he said “you’re gonna get a bike, you’re gonna paint it blue”.’

He did alright. Don’t ask.

Sleep Well.
XxxxxxxX

This is all I need to feel alive…

The crashing of white waves and I cant help but listen
The screaming of the earth and i cant help but…

So this is a quest to save the world
And he’ll always be here for another,
Another day, another chance to rescue
And this is all I need to feel alive
This is all I need to feel alive

Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night and thought “shit”.
I have, but then I fell asleep, and forgot what I was saying “shit” about.
aww shit. : /

I expect I’ll remember it at the most inconvinient time, like in the middle of sex or something, and its just a bit rude getting up to write down what you were saying “shit” about.

I don’t get why some people make a big deal about loosing your virginity, people tells me “you always remember the first time you have sex” bullshit it was like.. 2/3 month ago, and i’ve already forgotten : / (sorry fern)   I think it was… on my bedroom floor, but it could well have been actually on my bed. but we don’t use that anymore because its squeaky : ) didn’t used to be, then it snapped in half : ) so I fixed it, but now it squeeks. Grrr.

Anyway, I sorta do remember it, because i remember the events going up to it, and after it because of the many things i had to do :S and the long process of actually doing it… but yeah…  so i guess i’ll remember it because of the events surrounding it, but i think it was so good i completely forgot to remember it and just enjoyed it to my fullest at the time : )

It was very good.

My memory is shite anyway : )
Hate to think what i’ll be like when i’m older : O

I’ll be one of those guys who forgets where his glasses are when they are on his head : / grrr.

I’m now going to go downstairs… and buy a rally car on Gran Tourismo, because I’ve got enough money, So I’m VERY happy : )  SUBAAAAARRRUUUU : )

ttyl xxxxx

When we made love…

…you used to cry,
I said I love you like the stars above,
I’ll love you til I die.

That’d be really wierd wouldn’t it..? If you were having sex, “making love” and then the other person started crying.  I’d be pretty weirded out. Unless of course there was a reason for it, for example, you were doing it in a field and the other person has hayfever- thus making their eyes water. That is a perfectly valid reason to cry during sex. Another one, would be… if you were just told that your whole family has been killed, and you are being raped.

What’d be REALLY bad, would be if you were being raped in a field, with hayfever being a biatch, while surrounded by your dead family members. That would be pretty damn shite.  Ahh well. Whats the likelihood of your whole family dying and being raped in a field, we don’t live in africa here! : O

Now then, stop talking about sex you perverted freak. As great as it is. It’s not what this post is about.

Masturbation. Well no. That’s not what this post is about either. Thats just the first thing i thought of when trying to think of a topic. Show’s how much of a man i am don’t it? But noes, I’m all set on the penis use for today
And you know in a film… i believe its gone in 60 seconds… with Nicholas Cage(OMG BUFF)… some one says that if you sit on your arm and make it go numb then wank, it makes it feel like its being given from someone else. Problems!
1) The way you wank is unique, it’s like how you drive(or fuck).
2) It wouldn’t feel like its someone else, because your whole freeking arm isn’t numb as well.
3) Even if it was numb, wouldn’t you just be put off due to the fact that you cant feel your arm?
4) I tried making my hand numb. (Scientific research yeah) and the second you take the pressure off, you get tingling then feeling back.

So anyone lonely fool, who cant get a wank off someone else, don’t even bother doing this to see what it’s like, It doesn’t work. Just pay your sister or something.(Chris Jeffsticals)

Eurgh.

Anyway, I must now think of another topic of interest… : /
OOO when you are having sex in a field that causes people to have hayfever, do it near horses. (not dead ones) real ones, because you get nice pictures : )  Of the horse’s that is.

I really need to stop talking about OTHER PEOPLES sex lives : )  I best not be going down a nice long line of sexual topics. OH GOD. Someone think of something new. um um um. Hot chocolate.

Don’t you just love hot chocolate. I have a real fetish for it right now, only because fern has some, and I dont. But I am just as happy with my “Tesco’s own Sparkling ORANGE” and my “Tesco’s own(not value!) Custard Creams” : )   I am so easily pleased : ) Though i warn you, do not drink large amounts of the Sparkling orange in one go. It’s really bad for your insides, i can feel the gas building up : )  Attractive?
I cant decide whats better, Custard Creams, or Bourbons. Because I do love a good bourbon… I remember them from primary school, although i’m not entirely sure my taste for things worked to well then… So many days or Baked Beans, Rice and Turkey Twizzlers. God I ate such crap.  Still I loved my primary school. The food was amazing, and I miss my year 3 and 4 teacher, Mr. Lee. He was a legend : ) He gave me a duck thing to put in my bathroom when he left. And! He kept in contact with us all for a while.  When he left we all chipped in a bought him a Red Letter thing, which basically allowed him to do some random activity, and he chose one of the air thingys, where you hang from it, like a glidery thing, but its powered. and he flew over crop formations and took pictures and sent the to us. I think i still have them somewhere : )

And I miss the teacher that did the after school club, she was also a legend, she was a star trek fanatic, and i love them. No I’m not a geek. I can just get really stuck into anything. I have 2 Star Trek DVD’s : ) I love them lots. I have to say, my fave captains have to go, Picard, then the woman who’s name i forget, i think her first name is Jane(thats odd i know her first name but not her last) and then Kurk, but there is deep space nine, and he’s black, I have nothing against black star captainy people, it’s just that was all based on a space station thing, not a space ship, so it was boring : ) plus i  didn’t know half the people on it : )

This is bad; sex, masturbation, drink, food, primary school, teachers, STAR TREK.

It’s like when talking about Famous Vegitarians. It’s one of the only times, Hitler and Ghandi can be put in the same sentance…

Anyway, i refuse to make  you read more than 1000 words, so i will leave this here at what i believe is just over 900. I’m not entirely sure because then word count stopped updating at 885 : o

So my pretty’s. I bid yee fair night, Sleep well fools : )

Sleepy beans.

xxXxx

Let Me Live

Please?

Shit fucking happens. Sometimes, but you know, sometimes, just sometimes, shit doesn’t happen, and something good comes your way… Something which will change your life. Something which, previously, may have been something or someone you didn’t quite understand or get to know as well as you should have.

However, once you do understand, once you’ve gotten over the little problems. Great things can come from what previously may not have appeared to be very good. You may have realised.. this is like the reverse of “Kill Me Now”. That is because, for one, I’ve changed since then, and my opinion of the person in question has changed dramatically. Two, I’m going out with her.

Now the whole self harm issue raised in the older post… I still think it’s bad. After having been there. It’s not a good idea, it can help to a point. But it’s addictive. However sadly i occasionally do it simply because i like the taste of blood : ) but that was ages ago : ) and i don’t do it often, and normally only suck my blood if i hurt my self by accident. so it’s alright ;D

But self harm isn’t a good idea : )

Also, who cares what a friend is. It’s good to have a friend, but what is the definition of friend? I cba to look it up so pfft. Basically, i believe your friends should stick with you through thick and thin. They don’t like something they can go away : ) I’ve foun out who my real friends are. moslty people who couldn’t give a crap what i do. Which is good really : ) but they are also the people who i trust to look after me if i ever get to a point where i need that. They are legends really, so thats what i think friends should be. If they cant except who you are, screw em : )

Now this paragraph… i cba with.. Yeah certain things hurt other people, but life isn’t all peaches and cream.. sometimes shit happens, and people come out of it differently, right now, i think i’ve come out quite well and i dont really plan on creating problems like that for myself again : ) at least not for a while So right now I’m happy. and I think you should be happy to, because you have me : )

Shit happens. Yeah? Not always, for example: You happened : ) You happened. today and yesterday and many days before that, so I rather enjoy it. You are great : )

Screw me. Please? : )

I love the contrast. It’s great But you have to believe me eventually : )
People can and will love you, for you. It’s not a physical impossiblity : )

Love.

Deep-Seatedly : )

Like Stuff : )

I like vampires again : )

xxx

Promises Mean Everything

When you’re little, and the world is so big.

Its true isn’t it? Promise’s mean everything when your a little kid… Your parents promise to take you to the zoo, but something happens and they don’t take you. Kids through a great big tantrum. Now I wonder if they would act differently if they knew the strain it put on their parents. Especially if the reason for them not going was because of a family member dying…

You don’t think about death when your little. It doesn’t effect you. You don’t notice it. You don’t know about it.
I really don’t know where this is heading. But maybe, if kids understood things properly, they wouldn’t be such a burdon to their parents. I guess thats pretty easy to talk about. Not gonna happen though.

Oh well what a nice topic to start tonight on… but seriously I love that song.
Wonderful – Everclear you have to listen to it, It’s freeking awesome

I’m in pain. Repeatedly. I have also just lost interest in writting this.

Night all

xxx

I’ve been to the year 3000

Not much has changed but they lived underwater,
And your great, great, great grand daughter,
Is pretty fine.

Not much has changed. But I’m much closer to my GCSE’s now. Less than 2 weeks. Really, Really, Gay. Repeatedly.

Apart from GSCE’s everything is pretty good. “Fuck It” is a very, very good phrase. I’ve said it to a lot of things lately.  It’s mighty good.

I’m improving = ]

Alsooo I found busted posters today Busted are acutally amazing. It be going on my wall again  : )

LOVE IT = ]

I need to find a way to avoid arguments but I also need to make my mind up. I should also stop being so optimistic. Otherwise I get dissapointed.

I should also make sure I make sense more.  That would help with a lot of things.
That means thinking about what I say before I say it…

Prom = Fuck It
Revision = Fuck it
Sleep = Fuck It
Eating = Fuck It
Thinking Clearly = Fuck It
Paying attention to parents = Fuck It

Listening to the people i care for most =

Yeah : )

Love youuuuu

xxxxxxxxxxx

gay

frogs